5 years

A lot of feelings today and a lot of things to say, but it's all kind of jumbled in my brain. I keep thinking of what I want to say and then get mixed up and can't put it into words anymore. We took a trip to Las Vegas this week. It's probably Denny’s favorite … Continue reading 5 years

Victories

We had a victory this last weekend. Winnie was able to stay somewhere else overnight. My aunt, my mother's sister, has been the most involved family member over the last few months (and since after my mom died). This is the aunt who told me she was glad I was mad last weekend. Winnie went … Continue reading Victories

Punch

It's been two months today. This probably gets obnoxious to some people, but each time I get down another week or reach a monthly milestone, it's huge. I don't know why because logically, the date shouldn't really matter that much. But it does to me. It feels like a relief that I got through another … Continue reading Punch

Anger

The floodgates opened this weekend. I don't know how or why but they did. I've been thinking more about Denny’s choices in life lately. How those things will affect me and our girls. Not just him taking his life. But stuff before that. The good choices... there are so many. He chose to become sober … Continue reading Anger

Security

A few weeks ago, on a Thursday, I went to the social security office. The kids and I get monthly survivor's benefits. This is just part of the social security program for everyone who pays into it. I went in hoping it would just cover my rent. Not having life insurance, I have to figure … Continue reading Security